im terrible blogger

sorry this took me so long to write, i've been neglecting this blog oops!
well after 3 months of wearing hearing aid my hearing deterotiate to the point that the sounds come in as vibrationn no sound at all so its offically dead now hah oh well, more reason to get CI in that ear damn it doctor (he wouldnt implant me for dumb reasons)
also I've heard about new nucleus 5 system, at first i hated it and send me into semi-panic mode that i might not be able to get implant for another 5-10 years until next generation after nucleus 5 comes out hopefully better designs, that or beg harder to my surgeon to implant me now this year while freedoms are still used UGH!! but after while i warmed up tiniest bit to the processor itself but still abhor the implant designs itself, come on square metal housing? the top edges causes slight discomfort for me already (its already being successfully treated with nortriptyline meds) now with 4 sharp angles edges, just what i need, more discomfort? why cant they make it tapered from center to edges or make it round? idiot manufracturer, so i dont know what to do just hope the clinical trial goes badly that they change the housing design or comes out with next generation less than 3-5 years or my doctor gives in and implant me right away damn it im back into semi-panic modes so see ya later